by Sally Edwards

Image credit: Jody Hong


Losing my grip on reality

Beginning to fall down this slippery slope

Feelings of despair and isolation

believing that there is no hope

How will I wake from this nightmare

how can I mute voices in my head,

Some days I think I can handle it

some days I wish I was dead.

I look all around me for a companion

someone I can talk to and cry

but the only friend that can soothe me

comes in a bottle with a substance inside

a substance that gives me some respite

from the memories I try to forget

a substance so freely given at times

when we relax and celebrate

her bottles and cans do surround me

as I wake from the cruel dark of night

and the pain deep within is overwhelming

go insane with this sentence of misery yes I just might

who else is going to save me

can anyone really hear my cries

or am I alone on this island

no ship to take me aside

so I sink further into the bottle

the only thing I have left

when horrors in my past I remember

she helps me to heal and forget

I have to leave my mistress

as she’s leading me further astray

and I know I will live without her

some year some moment some day


Sally Edwards

Sally Edwards began to write four years ago after retiring from a successful Inclusive Dance career. She realised there was a gap in the visibility of Disability/LGBT artists creating work within the arts and took this on personally by writing a story which was later published as a novel How To Love.

Sally’s mission is to raise awareness of and encourage more Disabled LGBT artists to be more visible and enjoy a career in the Arts. Her work has also appeared in DIVA in March and was interview on DIVA Radio.

Sally has performed at various festivals and events such as Lfest,  DIVA Literary Festival, Isle of Wight Pride and Hampshire Pride (to name just a few). She has a new novel coming out this year which focuses on the recovery process of having an acquired disability – not just the physical side but also how an event such as this can affect your mental health and the mental health of those closest to you.